WHAT THE....

10 YEARS OF MY LIFE

2006-01-06T12:51:00.000-06:00

WOW- today is my 10th wedding anniversary!!!!! I cannot believe that those are words that come from me.. I have been married nearly a third of my life... We seemed such young kids when we started dating 12 years ago. I look at pictures of us and think where did those two people go?? I don't feel much different from then, but I look at the older face in the mirror and don't know who is looking back at me. Does everyone see that in themselves? There have been so many changes in our lives the past 10 years and at the same time almost none. That sounds weird to say- and maybe it's just me? I look at our two kids and wonder why did we wait so long to have them?? Was I afraid I would be a terrible parent? Am I a good parent? Have I made the right choices? These are questions that I don't have the answer to. I just know that I am so enjoying life right now and don't want it to end!! I hate to see myself as vulnerable to disease and death- but it is always there lurking. I look at people around me who don't have what I have and wonder why. Who decides who gets what in life? If there is a god out there- let me be.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE- HOPE IT'S A GOOD ONE!

DR'S DR'S AND MORE DR'S

2005-12-29T17:18:00.000-06:00

Hello, remember me??? I am back in some form- not sure if totally back or not. Quick update on the kids- RSV... need I say more, oh and ear infections... We have been to the dr more this one month than G-baby has been her whole life.. and A.C. has been alot herself- not to mention a hospital stay, so can you blame me for not ever blogging.. AC is doing wonderful, she is so fat and happy, except for having rsv now thanks to big sister who can't leave her alone.. I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and will have a Happy New Year!!! God Bless

In case anybody still reading my blog

2005-10-01T13:10:00.000-05:00

It's a girl!!!! In case anyone is still checking my blog- doubtful after nearly a month of no posts-- I was tired. Allison Claire was welcomed into the world two weeks early ( courtesy of hurricane Rita) on Friday Sept 23 at 6:04 pm. She weighed 7#5 oz and was 19 inches long.. she is so beautiful!!! After 5 days of jaundice, and blood drawn everyday, we are finally getting some rest and relaxation. I am on maternity leave until after Thanksgiving, which is going to come too fast!!!! If any of my online friends would like to see a photo of the baby, email me and I will email the website addy to see her nursery photo.. Later

I am gonna cry

2005-08-19T07:03:00.000-05:00

I went to G-baby's school orientation last nite. I don't know how I am going to leave her there Monday!!! Even if she does care if I am there or not- it is going to be one of the hardest things I've done. How do you put your child into the care of someone they have never met??? I know I am a very over protective mother- but hey it took me years to get her here- I am going to do everything poss. to ensure nothing happens to her. There are 9 or 10 boys in her class and there are 15 total. That cannot be good. Well, I was just about crying last nite after leaving the school- so I know Mon. will be bad. Pray for strength and courage for me to be able to walk out and leave her Monday.

YEAH FOR ALTERNATIVE MEDICINES!!

2005-08-18T12:20:00.000-05:00

Well, I have been going to a chiropractor for my pelvic pain, and after TWO adjustments, I am already feeling better!!!!!!! A pelvic adjustment hurts alot worse than a back adjustment does- but it has helped hallelujah- I had the best nights sleep last nite that I have had in a long time!!! I will be going regularly until this baby is born. My bone is sore when they pop this device on it to make the bone move- but it hurts for only a few minutes compared to excruciating pain most all nite and day..

G-baby's birthday was wonderful- she got lots of presents and we all had so much fun. Thanks for the well wishes!

Random Thoughts from a body in pain

2005-08-03T19:43:00.000-05:00

1. Why do I have to work??? I don't like working all the time and I wish I could quit esp on days like today when my back started hurting at 2:00 - I would have went home but somebody oked a work-in mammo and bone density, then someone else told the 2 oclock pt she could come at 4. and there were routine xrays out the ass... I did leave them with two difficult pts to be done at 5 oclock-

2. I hate Jane Fonda- I think she is a horrible selfish person, and I wouldn't waste my hard earned AMERICAN dollars on anything that has her in it, near it, or in anyway associated with it... she needs to go move to Iraq or Vietnam and live out the rest of her miserable life.

3. The SOB child molester that killed the little boy and did god knows what to his sister, has been linked to another case in which a child was assaulted and killed -- so much for "they can be rehabilitated" I think if you touch a child, you should be castrated and branded with a big tattoo on your forehead that says molester!!!! So much for sex offender registration - ONE STRIKE YOUR OUT!!!!

4. My sweeties b-day is in 3 days, I can hardly wait, one of my good friends sent her her present yesterday, and it was so sweet to hear her ask if the present was "for me" she tore into it, so hopefully this year will be exciting to watch her open gifts. Last year she didn't care, she wanted to play with all the kids.. I hope the weather is nice like last year, I can't handle much heat in my condition!!!

That's all the rant for now- thanks for listening...

Vacation Part II

2005-08-02T20:43:00.000-05:00

Darn it takes me forever to do anything nowadays. Sorry so long to get back to the story. Friday is the worst day of the vacation. We (me, mom, stepdad, and G-baby) get up early and are waiting on stepsister and her hub to finally get out of bed-- and they decide they want to rent another boat and go out onto Lake Hamilton.. so we finally get going after 9, we are all in my stepdads truck easing down the road, when some hillbillies pull out down the road in front of us, (st least we think they pulled out they could have just been driving down the road) well this hound dog runs out in the road chasing them, well needless to say, there was a vehicle coming from the other way, and we hit the brakes trying to stop, but we ran over him, we felt him roll under both tires..... we are all trying not to freak cuz G-baby didn't see the dog in the road, and I didn't want her to know we hit it. The hillbillies evidently saw us hit it, and they stop in THE MIDDLE OF THE HIGHWAY!!!! I am assuming it might have been their dog??? they are screaming at us for not F*ing stopping to check on the stupid dog!!! I am pissed at this, and had I been driving I would have had my preg ass on their heads for harassing me with my kid in the car.. not to mention the fact that it is dangerous to stop in the road and that injured animals can be dangerous- I'm not messing with one unless it is my OWN.

First of all, you'd have to be an idiot to run in the ditch to miss an animal, it will do more damage than hitting it, Secondly, there was a child and a seven months preg woman in the truck? Had the other lane been clear, we could have avoided it.. Thirdly, if you really cared about your dog, you would have taken care to keep it outta the road!!! Animals get ran over in the highway! okay- enough about that .

So we go onto the lake, and rent a boat during one of the hottest times of the day- thanks Sis...

That night we go to the rest, that Steph suggested-"thanks"
We had the craziest waitress in the entire world, she scared me from the beginning to the end of our meal... Skipping the boring parts, As she was cleaning of some of the table, she though my stepsis hadn't eaten her crablegs, so she asked her about them, sis said she ate what she wanted, so she offers it to sis's hubby, he says no he don't want it either. next thing I know, this piece of crableg land on MY PLATE- I'm like WTF? I didn't know what to say- we are all looking at each other in disbelief!!!!!!!!! This waitress just put food off someone else's plate onto mine, and she touched it w/ her hands!!! UGHHHHHHH. I am so ready to leave, I just want to run screaming from the building...

Sat was pretty tame until 5 that afternoon , and as we are getting ready to go to the pool, our elect. in the camper goes off, we think we have thrown a breaker- nope, nothing so simple as that.. the breaker box, and wiring to the rv pad has died, so we have to spend the next two hrs moving the camper over to the next spot- in 100 degree weather, if it had happened earlier in the day, we would have just pulled out and went to Pine Bluff..

So that concludes the good vacation/ bad vacation week as short and sweet as I can make it...

BTW four days till my G-baby turns 3....

DR JEKYL/ MR HYDE VACATION

2005-07-27T17:10:00.000-05:00

OH where do I begin? Most of my vacation week was pleasant, the end was hell!!

Monday- left Bastrop 4:30 got to Hot Springs 8:30 nice drive, not alot of traffic.

Tuesday- lounged around camp/condo, went into downtown to get pamphlets on things we wanted to do, bought food, read book- nothing exciting.

Wed- Got up early, rented party barge on Lake Quachita, spent entire day looking for good place to swim to keep cool.. water level down about 10- 15 feet from last year- NO good place to swim because of water grass-- ewww!!! Still had fairly good time tooling around lake, got a little pink..

thur- Went into downtown to get massage and let stepsister have her hot bath, we decided to go to the Buckstaff bathouse this year- BIG MISTAKE!!!! Go to the Arlington, much better!!! So I only wanted a simple massage, that I have to sit for over an hour in nothing but a sheet, sweating so badly it was like I had done the hot bath- gross, I hate to sweat and feel it on my skin!!! So I finally get to my massage table, she tells me to lay semi -on my side and stomach, so she can massage my legs, I feel the sheet come up higher than I care to have it- lets, just say there was some "moon" showing, and before I can correct it she has done RUBBED MY BUT CHEEK!!!!!! I was horrified!!!! You don't just rub someone there!!!! So I am totally freaking out.
When I turn to the other side, I make sure the sheet is covering me, thinking it was an accident-- HELL NO- she did it again on that side.... and then time is up!! I was not happy, she never even touched my back- which is the only thing I really wanted massaged anyway... So I can't wait to get outta there and see how my stepsister's bath went!!! Her story is just as bad, they exposed her several times while moving from place to place, (the Arlington took extra care to ensure your privacy!!! ) and she said they rubbed her but also!!!!!!

Friday gets even worse, but I don't have time to finish now, will post rest of the saga as soon as I can!!

UPCOMING VACATION

2005-07-15T15:46:00.000-05:00

Oh my god, one more work day (Monday) till I leave for vacation !! I can't wait, I am going to lay on my big preg but and do nothing!!! Except catch some sun and swim!! We are going to Hot Springs with my mom and stepdad, stepsister and her hubby.. I hope that I will be able to receive a massage from the Arlington, I hate that I don't get to do the hot bath!!

Next month is my snugglebugs 3rd b-day, we are planning a Dora party in the park!! If any of my computer smart buddies can hook me up with some address labels with Dora on them, let me know how!!!!! I got some last year from ebay with ducks on them for her invitations, but I haven't found any with Dora, and time is running out, they need to be mailed week after next.

Pregnancy is going ok for the moment, pelvic pain has eased up some, hope it stays that way!! I know everyone has been praying for it to go away and not cause anymore problems.. thanks!

I hope I will get better at posting, but it is so much more fun just to read everyone else's since mine is so boring to me!! Chow, I prob won't post while on Vacation..hope everyone has a good week, I know I will!!!

Joys of Pregnancy

2005-07-01T07:07:00.000-05:00

Well, I am still here! Yeah!! I have reached 26 weeks, Baby is fine- and NO we still do not know what it is and I still don't want to know!! Everyone has a different opinion about that and about what it will be!! there are some funny "home tests" for the sex... one of the girls in the lab did a "Drano" test, it involves crystal drano and pee!!! yuk, anyway, it says that it will be a boy! I forget what Steph had said it was based on the chinese lunar calendar- You'll have to do it again someday!

This pregnancy has not been easy. Everyday is filled with pain of one form or another.. I have been diagnosed with a condition where my ligaments have prematurely loosened and every time I move, I could separate my bones to far!! They pop and hurt all the time, walking extra past work is not happening! I think this may have started at my first child's' delivery.. I thought my tailbone was broken during her delivery, but now I wonder if it was my symphisis bone separating too much??? I never had it x-rayed b/c they don't do anything for a broke tailbone. I think I won't be working the entire nine months this time, and I may even have to have a C-section if the condition worsens, b/c you aren't supposed to open your legs to far, it could cause permanent damage!! anyway, there is your preg update... (Steph, hope I didn't scare you)..

Something Different

2005-06-22T07:04:00.000-05:00

Since Dub. Achievements beat me to my post about Hit me Baby One More Time, I'll post about two other shows I have ran across this boring TV season. Both are on VH1. the first is a train wreck- it is so unbelievable you can't help but watch.. "KEPT" Jerry Hall Is picking her a "BOY TOY" to be her kept man... WTF Can you believe people would stoop so LOW.. Even her, she could get just about any man she wanted in her social circle- (oh I forgot most of them don't like women) haha- and that's not intended to be an insult to gay people... This show is just Ugh but I can't wait to see what atrocious things these guys will do next...
The second show has great eye candy for women on it, and YES, that is why I am watching it-- their faces aren't that great, but some of em got pretty nice figures!!!! It's called STRIP SEARCH.. they are "boy banding" them searching for the next great male revue.... It is almost as catty as I imagine a beauty pageant really is!!! Anyway, it's just a little fun to watch! Check it out and let me know what you think about it!!

WHERE DOES THE TIME GO??

2005-06-15T16:36:00.000-05:00

I HATE THAT I CAN'T POST AT A ANYKIND OF REGULAR INTERVALS.. BETWEEN WORKING MY A** OFF AT WORK FOR PEOPLE WHO COULD GIVE A S*** LESS, AND TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF THE CHILD I ALREADY HAVE, I AM TOO TIRED TO EVEN CARE! ONE OF MY COWORKERS HAS BECOME THE ROYAL SNITCH, SO I CANNOT EVER GET TO POST AT WORK ANYMORE, OR I'M TOO BUSY DOING ALLI THE PATIENTS THAT SHE DOESN'T DO-- LETS SEE FOR TODAYS EXAMPLE, IN 8 HRS SHE HAS DONE 3 PTS, I HAVE DONE 10--- AND I''M THE FAT PREGNANT ONE!!! ANYWAY ON TO HAPPIER THINGS, I FOUND A CUTE DESIGN TODAY THAT I'M THINKING OF USING FOR MY NURSERY, IT HAS TEDDY BEARS, RUBBER DUCKS, BOATS, AND BUBBLES ON IT, SINCE I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE BABY IS, IT IS REALLY HARD TO FIND CUTE IDEAS... ANY SUGGESTIONS WOULD BE HELPFUL!!! AGHH- IT'S TIME TO GET OUT OF HERE- LATER!

HEY GUYS!!

2005-06-03T15:48:00.000-05:00

I'm sure everyone is annoyed at me for not posting in forever, work has been hell this past month, we went to a new radiology system, and it has taken all my free work time up.. home is to slow to post, I get pissed and want to throw the computer out the window.. I hope to get a new home comp one day, but since we just bought Baby a pool, it won't be anytime soon.. life is good, all is well with the pregnancy, I am at 23 weeks if I remember correctly.. I had a 3-D ultrasound done at 21 weeks, it is SO AWESOME, you are able to look at their face!!! I didn't want to know what sex the baby is- so don't ask- I didn't see!!! Everyone just cannot believe that I don't care it the baby is a girl or boy!! As long as it is healthy- it's good either way... my other baby is growing up so fast- it's like she is a different person than a few months ago.. anyway, hope everyone else is good in blogland.. will be posting again- but not everyday!!

YEP, IT'S OFFICIAL

2005-05-11T12:55:00.000-05:00

I definitely am the worst mother lately... after killing her birds, we had a weekend of potty accidents, which got her three spankings, two time outs, and sent to bed at four oclock in the afternoon because I was so mad at her I didn't want to see her. Well, Monday she starts complaining to my MIL that it hurt to tee tee.. So I made her a MD appt for Tue and guess what - she has a urinary tract infection!!!! Great, after I have punished her an entire day.. Why didn't she complain to me when she went to the bathroom???? So now we get to give her medicine twice a day for 10 horrible days!!! she offered me no explanation as to why she was peeing in her clothes, so why did she tell my MIL!???? Because she thinks more of her as her mother than me, since I can't stay home and raise her myself...I dislike my husband for that - I would love to be a full time mom, even if it meant living on a smaller budget, but there are no benefits on a farm, and we have to have insurance...And I wouldn't stay home forever, only until they were in school.

WORST MOTHER EVER

2005-05-07T08:20:00.000-05:00

I am a horrible mother right now, I have killed my daughters two birds!!!! I think I must have starved them to death ( technically they prob died of thirst) I feel so crappy, especially since she just lost her dog a few weeks ago!! She went into the room with the cage and was freaked out that they weren't in the cage- I told her they got out and flew away!!!! She had let one of them out a few weeks ago, so she knows they can fly around!! So I win the worstmother award for the week...

And now more depressing news (at least to me anyway) The end of one of my favorite shows for more than 6 years... Third Watch.... last nite was so depressing to watch... And I still have never found out why they canned it so quickly and out of the blue!!! I figured it was going out of style when they switched it to Fridays, no one watches much tv on Friday note, unless you are homebodies like us!! If you never watched it, it was a great show... And if you did watch it, then I hope you will miss it as much as I.

BUSY BUSY BUSY

2005-05-03T08:48:00.000-05:00

I have been so busy and sick lately, I have not had time to think about a post!!! Had an allergy attack last Thur, so was sick most of the wknd.. and Talladega was Sunday, so I wasn't gonna be posting during the race.. Pissed that my guy got taken out almost at the end of the race!!! Damn Jimmie Johnson- who is never at fault according to him!!!! Lots of things burning through my mind to post when I'm not sitting at this computer, but the minute I sit down to type- it goes BLANK!! I have to give props to Steph for giving my a wonderful idea last time I talked to her on the phone--- I am going to attempt to draw and paint an iris that belonged to my late grandmother... I took some pictures of it last week, but they didn't turn out well, they were blurry, so I missed the blooms, b/c by the time I had the film developed, the blooms had died.. I was so saddened..but said well there's always next year.. So Sunday, I am walking around in the yard and walked up to my plants, and you will never guess--- the plant had rebloomed!!!!! I have NEVER seen an iris rebloom like that!! It is so weird... So I called my friend with a digital camera to take some more pics, and they are fabulous!!!! So I hope to have my first original painting started soon!!!!
UPDATE: I have the pics printed and hav done two outlines for my canvas from them! It is gonna be awesome!!!!

LACE tickets

2005-04-27T06:51:00.000-05:00

I have been doing alot of thinking about these "special" tickets lately since I know about five people who have gotten one of them, including my mother this weekend on her way back to AR... Most of the people writing these tickets are not regular patrolmen, they work as detectives, or in the case of my mom, a JUVENILE OFFICER... do these people even have proper training and credentials to run radar????? And if this practice of writing tickets just so the DA's office can get money is not illegal or shady somehow, and it is not reported to the state (this is how it doesn't go on your record) then why did they quit running the program in Monroe??? I am mighty suspicious b/c all 5 people I know that have gotten them have been ticketed for 72 in a 55, including my father in law- and he drives SLOW, I have had to stop and wait on him before when we traveled to Mobile for Thanksgiving..... He wouldn't be speeding that much EVER .. So SH, you might would want to look into this further also before forking over some more money.....

damn insurance

2005-04-26T07:19:00.000-05:00

I got my house insurance notice in the other day- and guess what it has gone up AGAIN, but the worst part is that it jumped nearly $300 this year alone, it had just gone up $200 last year- So in total it has more than Doubled in the last two years.... I will be searching this week for some cheaper insurance- I won't be able to pay my house note if I have to make up for and add extra money for next year!!!! I have no recent claims on it or anything!!!! We have only ever had one claim anyway- and that was 5 years ago, for $2000, I think they have gotten their money back from us!!!

HODGEPODGE

2005-04-24T10:43:00.000-05:00

Well, we went out last nite for Chucks b-day (AKA Bursttransmission) with Chuck, Steph (Dubious Acheviements), Mark (Relax and Breathe) ,Ginger(Sweet and Somber Fairy Tale), Brad (Mr Middle America), Me, Hubby, Andy, Jennifer, and I think Stacey (Stokehole). It was nice getting to meet Marc, Andy, Jennifer, and Brad. I really didn't get to meet Stacey.... Marc is just like Steph describes him- and that's all good.. Andy is hilarious, and Jennifer must be a hell of a woman for living with him.... They seemed to be a wonderful pair.. It was nice for us to go out w/out one baby- too bad the other is with me always so that I couldn't have that damn Long Island Iced tea that EVERYONE around me had!!!!!!! Anyway, we enjoyed it alot. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUCK- I think I forgot to tell you that last nite???
Secondly, I got a new computer cabinet.. it is nice, I got it a garage sale, it is solid wood, and originally comes from Martha's unfinished furniture, and costs alot more than what I paid for it.. I had to start cleaning out or other bedroom for the baby, so we had to get rid of the monstrous desk that was in here... this cabinet takes up only half the space, and it has doors to close it all up in...

Baby Scare

2005-04-21T13:49:00.000-05:00

well, I had a long day yesterday.. For the past few days whenever I wake up to go potty in the middle of the nite, I have been in excruciating pain when I stand up- I didn't think anything except that my bladder was to full and the baby was squashing it- until yesterday morning when I woke up hurting and hurt all day- I called my md that morning and they thought it was a ligament or something, so said take some tylenol and rest as much as I could, if it didn't improve to call them back, so yesterday afternoon, I have to go in to be checked and see what is causing the pain- it was the pressure pain that you feel late in preg- not at 4 months- so she ruled out that it was my cervix giving way, or dilating!!!! yeah- that was my biggest worry.. She checked several other things on me, and we finally concluded that I have a bladder inf... how do you get an bl inf when all I drink is water!!!!!!!! I have no other symptoms of an infection--- so that is the only thing we could conclude- so now I get to swallow horse pills for 2 weeks twice a day!!! Update on the dog- I want to kill it now! It is destroying my utility room!!! It will be moving out very soon, like maybe as soon as it gets it vet checkup this wknd!!!!

NEW MEMBER OF THE FAMILY

2005-04-18T16:36:00.000-05:00

Well, we found a new member for our family this weekend. He is two months old, and he is part Jack Russell Terrier, and Rat Terrier. He is so sweet and adorable... He seems very smart also.. (he hasn't pooped in my house) He will stay inside for a little while till he gets a little bigger, he is very small- he was the runt in the bunch- I have a sweet spot for the runts and "underdogs" of the world...Baby loves him to death, she is even jealous that he likes me and follows me around instead of her!!! She just won't keep her hands from around his neck, and trying to pick him up to carry... she also likes to pull on his legs- I had to spank her twice for hurting him!!! She also doesn't like for him to nap, God help her little bro or sis, I'm gonna have to make them nap in their room with the door shut, just so she will let them be!!! Whenever I get off my lazy butt and download some software to post pics, I'll post a photo of the cutie pie.. His name will prob be Pooh Bear, although I wanted to name him Poochie.. hubby didn't like that, he wants to name him Scooby, but Baby can't say that, she calls him Chewy half the time, and we have to keep reminding her that Chewy is gone... So she calls him pooh...

Tears of sadness

2005-04-13T19:27:00.000-05:00

Today is a terrible day for our family, our beloved and at the same tiem hated pet Chewy has passed away. We have had him for over eight years, I still remember how cute and tiny he was when I brought him home. He was so tiny that his beany baby lobster was bigger than him! He was such a character, he loved Baby and she definately loved him... All she talks about is "my Chewy" and she cannot wait to come home to play with him... He was so good to her, she did all kinds of mean things to him, and he never was mean back. The past two wknds., while we have been working in the yard, the two of them were rolling around playing in the yard. This will be one of the toughest things to do as a parent, how do you tell a 2 1/2 year old taht her beloved pet has gone away and is never returning?? Do we get her another pet immediatly, or do we wait awhile??? I don't know what to do- and I am really gonna miss the mutt too....he was such a good watch dog, no one came down the drive without us knowing- it is already too quiet around here without him this afternoon... I am just glad hubby found him, before Baby did...he is buried out in his yard underneath the wisteria tree... so he will always be near us.

WEIRD THINGS

2005-04-12T13:14:00.000-05:00

I thought I'd share a few odd things happening in my life lately.. See if how weird you think this is. When ever I take a shower, I have to turn the water on and let it run for a few minutes to get the freezing cold water out of the pipes, but if I turn it on too warmly, then as soon as I open the shower up to get in, it will make me throw up instantly!! Or if I get in the shower and stay in there too long, it will make me throw up also... so I am sure it is funny to see me shave my legs, I have to keep the shower stall door open, and point the water to the back wall of the shower... I could understand this phenomenon if the shower were nasty and dirty or something, but hubby cleans it for me since the fumes are terrible in the shower when cleaning (it's kind small).. So I do not understand why this happens... I did the same thing my first pregnancy- afterwards, I could stay in there for hours??? Go figure...

boring day

2005-04-11T16:29:00.000-05:00

Today has been a very long and boring day, with the rain added to it it sucks even more. To short of a weekend for me, and I really didn't do that much. Baby had a great time at her uncles ballgame Sat nite, she played in the dirt the entire time, she looked like Pigpen from Peanuts. Sunday she played the pitiful card right after Steph and I left for Pokeno. Hubby called me on the cell and said she had hurt her finger and was upset even more that mommy wasn't there to kiss it, so she gets on the phone telling me in the most pitifull voice she has about her bobo... it nearly made me cry.. Won third place - a nice set of candle holders, but I'm gonna trade them in for something else- I have enough candles... Steph won booby prize- that 's the prize for the lowest # of points- she got a nice set of decorative bowls. I read the she got a ticket going home though- and she left her cupcake I gave her at my house... maybe I can get this on fixed for her, unless it is one of the dreaded LACE tickets, then even God couldn't get you out of it, and your out 200 a pop... I am not sleeping well at all, and last nite Baby wakes up for awhile also, which keeps me awake even longer the usual.. any hot natured people are loving my house right now, every time I get up at nite, I have to turn the air down more because I am hot.. This will e the longest 6 more months of my life.. Sat when taking my shower, Baby was watching toons on our bed, I got sick, and turned the air down, when I got out of the shower, Baby was under the covers saying brr mommy brr... I was freezing her out!!

beautiful drive/ sore body

2005-04-04T07:34:00.000-05:00

Well, there are 72 new azaleas in my yard!! They look so pretty, I can't wait until they are all bigger in size and blooming, it will look almost like the garden district in Monroe!!! I am going to have to learn how to post pictures for you guys. My frigging neck and back ache, I dug many of the holes my self, and then hubby came along and dug the rest for me, but I still had to place the plant in the hole and refill it, I have to set the plant myself, he does not have a clue about proper planting of shrubs. Give him a tractor and he can plant crops, but not flower beds!!!We finally got the dead oak tree cut down, but now I wonder how long it will lay in the yard!! I am going to feel dead by this afternoon, I couldn't sleep last nite- too hot, child kicking me or rolling up beside me, hubby snoring, had to pee, you name it it keeps me awake... and I still have 6 more months to go!!! At least I can still turn over on my stomach when I get hot, I still haven't gained any weight yet, but my stomach is poking out further-I think I remember being this fat when I was about six months w/ Grace, so I'm gonna be so fat with this one

DOCTOR VISIT

2005-04-01T06:53:00.000-06:00

Well, my OB didn't make me feel to much better or worse about the area on my neck. She said that it was something there, but she had no idea of poss cause, since I haven't noticed any sinus prob, sore throat, or other usual causes. So she wants me to go see an ENT doctor. I am not thrilled about that. I talked to my mom about it, and she says she's had a knot on her neck for 7 years, so I should just watch this area for a week or so to see if it goes away. I'm not sure what I want to do yet... will have to think about it this wknd, while I am hopefully planting all my azaleas down my long driveway... hehe the neighbors are going out of town for the wknd- so I thought it would be a nice surprise for them to return to... esp since the husb hates azaleas hehehehehehhehe I plan to cover twenty feet on both sides of the drive with azaleas, crepe myrtles, rose of sharons and any other beautiful flowing shrub I can find....I'll get my yard back one way or another!!!For those of you who've never been to my house, I share a my drive w/ my neighbors, and they use the twenty feet of my property on their side as if it was theirs, and this pisses me off since they are only supposed to use the DRIVE...

My Worst Fear

2005-03-31T06:56:00.000-06:00

Most of you don't know what my biggest fear is of- Cancer! I have a phobia of it that is unreal- and I work in mammography, so I deal w/ cancer on some level alot. well, my greatest fear is that I will get cancer and my babies will grow up without me as their mother- I don't want anyone else raising my kids!!! Well, yesterday morning I noticed a swelling behind my rt ear on my neck- right where my lymph nodes should be- so I am really freaked out about this- it prob is nothing but I can't help imagining the worst. Lots of things happen when you are preg later in life- yes I know 31 is not that much later- but I've seen it happen to preg women in their 20's- I watched a 20 something year old die after finding cancer while she was preg, and she chose to not have an abortion to save her baby, and it cost her her life shortly after delivering her daughter... so this scares the shit out of me... I am going to my ob dr today, I will definitely be showing it to her. There have been several people working in the radiology field come down with lymphoma and other forms of cancer that were accidentally found, or they might have died from lack of symptoms. Anyway- I hope it is nothing but my paranoia

worthless blogger

2005-03-30T11:47:00.000-06:00

well, I did a great post yesterday about my thoughts on the terri Shiavo deal, but the frigging blogger ate it!!!! and this morning when I had enough time to redo it, blogger wouldn't come up for me!!!! so damn you blogger , now I don't have enough time to write something good- hope everyone is having a good day- maybe I'll come up with something good tomorrow.

I am so sick from this

2005-03-29T11:40:00.000-06:00

I am so sick from having to watch Terri S. being starved to death on the news, this is a cruel and sick thing to do to a person, and I don't care what your beliefs on life support are, this is a terrible way to die... If she is so damn peaceful and good looking(according to her shitty husband and his attorney) then why don't they show a picture of her to ease everyones minds.. because they know it is a LIE, dehydration and starvation are not a good way to die, If he wants her to die then why doesn't he smother her or something that is a hell of a lot faster.. I hope my husband never starves me to death.. My husbands grandfather had his feeding tube removed when he was in a COMA, and he died w/in 3 days- I think he was ready to go... she's been alive for 12 days this doesn't sound like someone who wants to die, she may know more than some smart ass dr could know about her condition.. he doesn't understand the complexities of the human brain- NO one does.. how do you know that if she had been receiving therapy all these 10 plus years that she couldn't have rewired her brain to work better- but no her "loving husband" stuck her in a home and left her to die- this is prob why she never got better. who thrives in an environment like that? I am not against the right to refuse treatment and all that stuff, but this is a sad case and it is not right to end her life this way.....

CRAP! Has it been that long?

2005-03-28T07:04:00.000-06:00

It has been nearly two weeks since my last post- I am sorry guys, I know how it sucks to keep checking on someone to find nothing new!!! I promise to do better in the future. Most of my sickness is gone, every once in awhile I'll have a bad afternoon, still in bed everynite before 9, I am just so tired... this preg is going to be alot harder on me , I already feel like I can't breathe, and I haven't gained any weight yet, I can't imagine being 9 mos and breathing well. I have one weird craving though- WATER I can't get enough of it. I honestly think it is what got rid of the morning sickness. I started getting up and drinking huge glass every morning. I have been drinking probably a gallon or more a day!!! (this is odd coming from me- I NEVER drink water- I am a tea person!!! ) so I go to the Dr thursday, and we should be able to hear the heartbeat!!! There is nothing like that sound for the first time- heck anytime is amazing!! Well, speaking of babies, my friend who is undergoing fertility isn't preg again this month, and she has to skip this month do to a huge cyst on her ovary, then next month they will give her stomach shots only- and if that doesn't work she will prob have to go to in vitro. Her ins only pays for one time... pray that she will get preg next month!!!!

good day so far

2005-03-15T17:18:00.000-06:00

Well, so far today I have not been sick,!!! yeah!!!! we will have to see how tonite goes.. the nausea and vomiting seem to be lessening.. it is close to twelve weeks, so maybe this one will stop at the first trimester.. first one went for five months... not alot has went on in my life, work , sick, sleep.. I swear I feel like a grandma going to sleep at 7 to 8.. but any later than that and I'm so sick I can't breathe.. Ms RN psycho bitch filed a HIPPA complaint against us for talking about her sons condition loudly... We never mentioned anything about the kid or hisd condition, and SHE was the one who was loud!@! anyway, I am not conserned, there are enough witnesses to tell the truth...that's about it,, hope to post again soon..

SORRY GUYS

2005-03-08T12:46:00.000-06:00

I KNOW MOST OF YOU ARE PROB MAD AT ME FOR NOT POSTING IN FOREVER... SORRY BABY SICKNESS IS KILLING ME.. I WENT TO SLEEP LAST NITE AT 7 30.. NOT ENOUGH TIME DURING DAY TO TAKE CARE OF ALL MY CRAP AND FIND TIME TO POST.. I PROMISE IT WON'T LAST THE WHOLE TIME, I WILL RETURN TO POSTING AGAIN, I HAVEN'T EVEN HAD TIME TO KEEP UP W/ READING EVERYONE ELSE'S POSTS.. HANG IN THERE...

UPDATE ON MS RN

2005-03-04T07:07:00.000-06:00

Our MD contacted the nursing board here... she may be in more trouble than she could EVER imagine... she might lose her liscence... the other thing is that our MD called the specialist that she took the films to and asked him to send them back to us when he was finished w/ them.. well you know how dr's stick together... guess where the films are.. in the folder w/ a dictation... and she will be recieving a bill for it... ha ha who gets the last laugh now...

ugh I hate my employer

2005-03-01T17:20:00.000-06:00

Today is another good example of why I hate my employer.. A patient and his mother came in from a ped. office, - mom doesn't want the radiologist to read the chest xray b/c she's taking it to a ped cardiologist AND because she has a $1000 deductable and would have to pay for it, so I politely tell her that it is hosp policy that all films must be seen by rad.. she gets pissed and starts causing a scene.. I tell her she can talk to my supervisor, and I call my boss on the phone.. my boss tells her the same thing, but that she will talk to someone in administration, she is very rude to sup. also and hangs up on her, telling me I 'm going to xray the kid... I said no mam, my hands are tied w/o permission from sup. So then she snatches up the phone and calls the operator demanding to speak to the CEO, she's gonna report me cause she paid for her x-ray and she WILL get it.... I am working on a mammo at this same time, b/c this isn't even MY pt.. it was my poor students... Our CEO is not there, so she talks to the CFO, he tells my student to go ahead.... Where are his BALLS???? she has no right to demand this... the rad. is pissed and wants me to show her the door.. I'm like oh hell, why me... so I call my sup. back and she tells me to go ahead and to give her the orig. films, not a copy... I'm thinking this is not a good idea, but I'm just the idiot who pushes the button....ha.. so we xray and send them on there merry way... after this, it comes to my attention that the original order has been altered.. there are two diff color inks, and upon closer review two diff handwritings... THAT BITCH WROTE ON THE ORDER HERSELF NOT TO LET THE RAD. DICTATE - NOT HER DR!!!!!! So the rad, is really pissed now... and we called the ped office, and he never told her any of the crap she said to us.. he was not to happy about her falsifying the order... needless to say she may be in alot more trouble that she knows... rad. is going to see what legal avenues he can pursue over it.. I hope she gets in alot of trouble.. and BTW she's an RN.... oh and it gets better, she altered her order in the Admissions dept IN FRONT OF THE PERSON DOING HER PAPERWORK... what kind of IDIOT doesn't know that you cannot alter a physicians order!!!!! Is she going to get written up- NO, is the secretary at our front desk, who took the original order and saw that it had two colors of ink going to get wrote up??? NO - why is no one held accountable for their actions??? And why the hell did that nutless wonder in adm allow her to do this... We EMPLOYEES of the damn hosp have to pay our ded. UP FRONT before we can have surg or anything else at that damn place, and they let this bitch tell them what to do??? How good is that... Sorry needed to rant... I hope she can be prosecuted for it....

TWO SHOWS I'M NOT GONNA WASTE MY INTELLIGENCE ON

2005-03-01T07:14:00.000-06:00

while lying around being miserable this wknd, I was watching some entertainment news about upcoming sitcoms.... well guess who's getting another show.... Pamela Anderson.. as if all the rest were such hits!!!! It will be called STACKED... hmm I wonder how they came up with that name... such imaginative people... she is going to be a bookstore/ coffee house owner.. yeah right books hahaha.. I cannot belive they would waste money on this!!!

The second show is the Dukes of Hazzard movie.. I already had doubts when finding out J. Simpson was playin Daisy... but now I found out that Sean William Scott and Johnny Knoxville are in it... ugh I think this will have to win the Razzie award next year!!! I wonder if J. would do like Hallie and show up for the award???

Happy Birthday Mia

2005-02-26T15:40:00.000-06:00

These are words my heart longs to speak to a beautiful little girl who was so unfairly taken from this earth, for reasons that we will never be privy to.. Life can be so cruel to people who don't deserve it, and most people who are bastards live the good life...And I'm not saying anyone deserves to lose a child in ANY way.. it's just that bad things happen in general to good people.. I will never understand this. My heart aches still for my best friend -who is like the sister I never had... my heart has ached since the moment her mom called to tell me of Mia's birth, and that there was a problem...never did I imagine something that would be fatal to her.. I just thought and hoped that it wasn't that serious.. I see children every day with birth defects, and most of them are wonderful children, there's always some that are very dependent-- totally helpless, but there are others who are bright shining lights.. even though Mia's not here with us physically , she is still one of those bright shining lights. she just doesn't know it... I am so blessed to have Step and Chuck as my friends.. you guys are a bright shining light to many people also, even though you didn't ask to be, you both handle it well in front of people. I hope the two of you share the day and that it will bring you some joy in it somewhere instead of sadness. I tried to write a poem after visiting Mia's grave to see her little black tombstone - but I kept getting blocked, so I figured I wasn't meant to write it.. I wish you guys all the happiness in the world for your future, but I know your past is filled with much pain...

Happy Birthday to you , Happy birthday to you, Happy Birthday Dear Mia- Happy Birthday to you... wherever you are send your parents an angel kiss today...

I'm still here- barely

2005-02-23T15:54:00.000-06:00

I am still alive in case anyone was wondering... been to sick to care about anything- but it seems to be getting bettr today and yesterday- no nausea- just a lot of hot flashes and gagging?? anyway, enough bout that, I do enjoyed getting to meet everyone last Friday nite , I just wish I had felt well enough to stay later! It was fun getting to put a face with the people I converse w/ now if only had Jin and Aishah pics to see them... When I am feeling lucky, I will try to post my two paintings , the home computer is a turtle!!! Let me give a quick laugh about stupid patients- lady goes into undress for mammo, I tell her if she has on any deodorant or powder to remove it with the wipes in there, she looks out and tells me she didn't use any powder but she did have a little "base" on --- I'm not talking about that kind of powder idiot- I'm not xraying your face!!! I'm xraying your boob-, I also tell her to ignore the third armhole in the gown, and how does she do that??? she wraps it around her neck.. why has god sent these people to me when I feel like absolute crap and don't want to be hasseled???

I have a confession

2005-02-18T09:34:00.000-06:00

I have a confesion, as much as I dislike reality tv, I do have a few shows that I watch.. but I don't consider them to be reality tv, they are more like game shows, just more interesting.. I watch Survivor and The Amazing Race.. they are both so fun to sit and watch these people be stupid and do all these crazy things for money. So the new Survivor came on last nite, and I manage to lay on the couch to watch it .. I was not surprised by them voting of the loud mouth J. girl... she was bossy, and she thought she was the ruler to tell everyone what to do... She got a big shock when she was voted out!!! I feel sorry for the other team that won the challenge and had their boat flip, tossing their only advantage into the sea!!! I hope they can recover... The other big shock to me was them picking the little srawny old man over the young strong looking guy!! I am definately glad they got rid of the horrible singing woman!! Gag!! Anyone want to give their pred. on who the final survivor will be???

What happened ??

2005-02-16T08:39:00.000-06:00

what happened to my sidebar?? it was fine last time I looked at it- I haven't changed anything??? maybe one of Jin's IT's are messing w/ my stuff now!!! I hopefully will have time to fix it soon, so be patient.. remember I am not feeling well so bloging is the last thing on my mind right now.. Ginger or Steph let me know about this wknd, I will come unless very sick feeling- I have pills to help so shouldn't be a prob...

Dinner w/ dear ole dad

2005-02-15T13:24:00.000-06:00

Well, I had a meal with my "father" last nite.. for those of you who don't know the whole story, my father and I had a fall out when my child was 6 mos old.. he let the witch that he had cheated on my mom with move into the apartment at his house-- well I wasn't having anything to do w/ that, so I quit speaking to him... Last year for my b-day he didn't call.. I haven't called him either though.. Well, this christmas, he decides to show up at my house one day w/ presents for all of us- (while I was at work- and he knew hubby was off for the winter) hubby feels sorry for him and lets him in- I would have prob shut the door in his face.. I am so over him I don't really care.. I think our lives would be better w/out him.. all he is going to do is give the same broken promises to my child like he gave to me, I don't want her to go thru that kind of disappointment.. anyway, he called on my b-day and said he wanted to take us out- so I reluctantly agreed.. so anyway, it went fairly well, I only had to ignore him a few times, because I don't care about any of his whores or crackhead friends.. I am not going to be involved in his life. He can visit my child, but she will never leave my site w/ him... I feel sorry for him because he thinks he has all these friends, but if they weren't getting money or other stuff from him, or weren't able to steal him blind, he wouldn't have anybody. he just can't see the real truth ...

Been Awhile

2005-02-14T14:56:00.000-06:00

hey everybody- I am alive (barely)... been so busy painting and pokeno playing that I haven't had time to post!! that dang computer at home is just too slow to fool with.. So let's play catchup..

First, I sooo enjoyed painting wed. and thur w/ Steph.. I missed her Sat I was so bored because I can't paint roses. I was also nauseated most of the day from the paint fumes.. I will try to figure out how to post pics-- Steph can hopefully tell me how!

Second, Sunday was my birthday!!! I'll tell you that I'm 29 and a 1/2 and you will all believe that HaHaHa... Didn't win at pokeno- so much for birthday luck!!

Thirdly, the big secret, well as most of you guessed , I am pregnant.. 6-7 weeks along due in early Oct...You people just bored me with your predictions... I am already having morning( lol)
sickness- more like all day and all nite! I had a few VIP people to tell in person before posting for the world to see!! Taht damn insurance won't pay but for 10- yes 10 pills for my nausea- our other ins would cover 25 at a time... 10 won't even get me thru the week!!! I HATE THESE PEOPLE!!!!!

OK, that sums it up I think...

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL- HOPE YOUR SWEETIES OR SOMEONE ELSE DOES SOMETHING NICE FOR YOU TODAY!!!!

random thought of the day

2005-02-09T15:41:00.000-06:00

this is my original post for the day, until I got the news about my friends daughter----

Do women with large breasts who have had a mastectomy tilt to the heavy side??

I know this is no laughing matter , but these random thoughts occur to me and I thought it would be fun to share with you!!!

and will someone please tell me how to disable the comments by blogger so I can use the haloscan comments??? I hate that I can't figure anything out on my own--stupid stupid stupid

SAD NEWS

2005-02-09T15:36:00.000-06:00

Someone that I know has a daughter who is preg. she is only 18. she is very immature, and prob not really ready to handle all the ups and downs of paretnhood.. well during her checkup they discoered something did not look right on the u/s.. so the sent her to the hosp for another u/s.. well ,the baby is 12 wks or so, and it has severe birth defects, that usually end up causing a misscarriage. she is so clueless as to the severity of it... it breaks my heart.. they are making her wait till next week to see a perinatologist, but there is nothing that can be done..pray for her and her family, as her mama already has a full plate with a handicapped brother and husband to take care of....

my ghost

2005-02-08T19:52:00.000-06:00

ok, reading Zahra's post about her incident gave me something to post tonite. I have been sitting here for over 30 min trying to think of something good, so here is this. Jin this is why I don't doubt any of your stories. I have seen two ghosts before (clearly) and I see "shadows" in my peripheral vision all the time. The two ghosts that I plainly saw were right after hubby and I moved into our trailer a few months into our marriage. I awoke to see a man and women standing at the foot of our bed. I was Not dreaming. I sat there staring at them and I realized that I could see through them, they were transparent. They were older people, wearing farming type clothing. I did not recognize them, so I assume they were either tied to the trailer or the land. I shut my eyes and prayed that they would go away. When I opened my eyes again, they were gone.. I have never even told my husband about that...The next thing occurred after we moved into our house now. I have always had the feeling something was watching me in the two extra bedrooms. After Grace was born, this feeling got stronger... I tried to ignore it, but when she got to where she would not sleep in her room , I assumed it was because of that. I didn't force her to stay in her room. One nite I got up and headed down the hallway, and my mom's oil painting was laying in the floor. I turned the lite on b/c I assumed the nail had dropped down to allow the painting to slide off to the ground.. the nail was still perfectly straight in the wall.... then I noticed that the painting was laying face up and turned around... if it fell off the wall, you would think it would fall face down, but especially not with the top side being against the wall....it looked like someone picked it up, turned around w/ it and placed it on the ground... I was only a little alarmed by it . The real kicker came one nite when we were trying to get Grace to sleep in her baby bed, we put her in her bed, and we went to our bed. she is screaming her head off forever. I get up and shut her bedroom door and our bedroom door. her screams are muffled out some, we are laying there discussing whether or not this is the right thing to do, when we hear this LOUD crash, I think she has fallen out of bed ( although I don't think she could have made that much noise if her bed had broken) I leapt from my bed to the door in one move!!!! I don't even remember opening either door, but as soon as I opened her door, she stopped crying. Nothing had fallen in her room, or anywhere else in the house that we saw..a few weeks later, I did find a shampoo bottle that had fallen one shelf down in the front bath down the hall, this is the only thing I ever found out of place....sometime later, a patient convinced me that this spirit needed to be thrown out of my house(she was a preachers wife) so I did what she suggested, I opened the door and walked thru every room demanding that if any spirits were there, that they leave via the door and not return.. since then things feel much better at home, now I still see shadows like someone has walked past me in a blur at work and other places, but as long as they are moving on, I don't worry.. Most people think you are crazy if you tell them you think you are haunted..I know different!

TWO POUNDS

2005-02-07T07:57:00.000-06:00

I gained two pounds yesterday from all the food we ate!! Ginger, you missed out! Not everyone got to come, so it was a small gathering of friends and family- but I enjoyed it greatly! I am so excited for Thur thru Sat. I can't wait till the painting class!!! Steph and I will have sooo much fun!!! Ok to the usually griping, my damn neighbors had a superbowl gettogether also, and what does one of the jackass's who came to their housedo -- drove thru my damn grass!!!! my yard is so boggy from all the rain, and it NEVER fails that some person drives thru my yard.. I have planted 50 shrubs to separate my yard from theirs and they still find a way to piss me off.. Next is a 6 ft fence from the corner to the road ( if I ever get any money to pay for it). I can't wait- my other option is to try to revoke the right of way for use of the driveway.. don't know how costly that would be??? Anyway, had fun visiting w/ Steph last nite

good morning

2005-02-06T09:08:00.000-06:00

ok, the husbands big day is here.. I have spent my entire weekend so far cleaning this house. I will spend the rest of the day finishing the cooking, and now I find out that several people prob aren't going to be able to make it over tonite... I am so dissapointed. I'm worried that I will have way to much food left over now.. oh well, doggie bags for all! I have no time to rest, as baby got my up at 730 sat morn, and she woke me up at 7 this morn- she keeps having bad dreams , calling out for momma in her sleep, and sitting up freaking out in her sleep- I dunno what to do to help her not do this?? After I grab her and tell her I am here, she goes back out, but sometimes she will do thia more than once a nite..anyone else have this prob w/ their kids? It make it very hard to function w/ even less sleep than usual.I have a feeling this year the Superbowl will be very boring, as the FCC will be watching every move they make!!! So even the commercials will be not as edgey! I really didn't care about the boob incident- I didn't see it, it happened so fast. I remember some football half time w/ Shania Twain (btw, I can't stand) showing her underwear b/c of this ugly outfit and the camera being below her on some thing that picked her up over the crowd!! Now that was disturbing!!

Scary Thoughts

2005-02-04T07:11:00.000-06:00

I have been thinking alot since Stephs post about this guy who killed his wife.. I think about that of all the sorry things my dad did to me and my mom, at least he and his WHORE didn't kill my mom off..I don't think I could survive without my mom now..of course back then, being young, stupid, and drugged out, I did not care about her at the time- I didn't want anything bad to happen, I was just brainwashed by my fathers' whore into not liking her... Boy am I glad I woke up and smelled to roses... my life would be so worse without having my mother to escape from his world of filth and degredation. I would probably be a meth addict like half of the people in my hometown... In most ways I am glad that his whore made him do tthe things he did, making me run away, to never return. I am not glad that two years ago when Baby was 6 mo old that she (the whore) who btw had just gotten out of jail for meth) came crawling back for his "help" I begged him not to have anything to do w/ her.. it has been a long ten years rebuilding the relationship we once had-- and what does he do- he throws it all away agin b/c of her..now I guess he thinks he can weasel his way back into mine and babys lives- I don't really want him to. I know it will turn out badly again... I have had my heart broken by this man more times than I can count, and I don't want Baby going thru the same heartache and disapointment. I know not to believe what he says, but she doesn't- I want to protect her from things like that- that is my job- I vowed to protect her from pain, and people like the whore and all the other bad people that tried to ruin my life.. if anyone is going to ruin her life, it will be of her own choices, not other peoples. to emotional to continue>

New Insurance

2005-02-03T06:55:00.000-06:00

I hate our new insurance!! It sucks so much- it is a comapny from Georgia. they require precerts on outpatient procedures like lab work, maternity care, diagnostic mammograms and a whole list of things!! But guess what- no one in our H.R. knows anything and we don't have booklets listing what's covered / not covered. So they tell us to call the comp. in GA- well guess what, they don't know either!!! The old comp. was here in town and we could call them easily w/ claim questions or problems. I had to call several times, b/c of denial on claims- it took two minutes to speak to a real person and get it fixed in a hurry!! nice and convienent.. How convienent wil it be to fix a prob w/ someone in GA.. especially when you call them and they have to put you on hold after EVERY question to go ask someone else!! and when you ask who they are asking, and if you can talk to THAT person, they tell you you need to call your H.R. dept....our H.R is lacking in many areas!!! So basically we are screwed, and I am sitting here hungry b/c i have to have fasting lab work, and I have to wait until 8 to see if I need a precert or not- I'm not happy!!!!

FOR CHUCK

2005-02-02T11:52:00.000-06:00

How does red beans & rice, party pizzas (mini bread things- they are awesome), chili-cheese dip, salsa, ranch dip, brownie trifle, king cake, and little smokie wraps sound to you?? This is the tentative menu- it is subject to change at my whim- and if everything available at the grocery store. (there will also be hot dogs for Grace) Trust me you'll still enjoy the food even w/o the footballs!!!! BTW- it's BYOB if you want something to drink- and If you let me know if you want something I can pick it up and you can pay me Sun (to save you an extra trip). I will be making some form of virgin mixed drink, (since I don't drink anymore) if you'd like to get something to go in one of them....see you Sunday afternoon - whenever you want to come down, Game starts late afternoon- I don't know what time

choc football recipe

2005-02-02T07:27:00.000-06:00

4 cups POST cocoa pebbles cereal
6 squares BAKER'S semi-sweet baking choc( tastes better w/ other kind of choc squares- but don't rem which one)
1/2 cup light corn syrup
1 tbsp butter
1/2 tsp. vanilla
white decorating gel/ icing

1. place cereal in large bowl.

2. microwave choc., corn syrup, and butter in lg. microwabable bowl on high 2-1/2 min, stirring after 1-1/2 min. stir in vanilla.

3. pour choc mixture over cereal, mix well. shape in 18 (3 in long) football shapes using slightly moistended hands ( plastic bags/ gloves work well) use decorating gel to add laces to footballs.

4. ENJOY!!

HOT BUTTON!

2005-02-02T07:04:00.000-06:00

I finally got my button posted that JIN made me!! It is just too cool-thank you so much Jin! Oh and also, I am in shock that my counter is over 300 already! WOW! I figured it would take forever to start adding up!!

my little big girl

2005-02-01T21:26:00.000-06:00

We went to a birthday party this wknd at the skating rink in w. monroe. Grace has skated only once before in Dec. (bd party also). She instantly went to town!! She was like a natural and it wasn't but a few minutes and she was skating on her own and with the birthday girl! She thought she was grown. It was so sweet to sit and watch her go. They grow up way to fast- it seems like just yesterday I found out I was preg w/ her - but nearly two and a half years have passed. But at every thought of my owm sweet baby, I think of others who aren't so lucky as me. I have way to many friends that have fertility problems or other things.. one of my close friends called me yesterday w/ the news that they are going to the "next level" of fertility treatment- this involves 4 injections in the stomach- I can't imagine doing that... I pray everyday for her and other loved ones in my life to be able to have children someday...life is not fair at all, because all these people are good and would be great parents-way better than all the welfare, crack/ meth addicts that have them at the drop of a hat!!!why is this world so cruel??????????????????

UGH!!

2005-02-01T09:57:00.000-06:00

OK ladies of the world- winter is here and your skin needs lotion!!!! this is the grossest thing to be doing a mammogram on a patient with skin coming off flaking and flying around in the air !! WHAT'S UP W/ THIS? it is not difficult to use an exfollient to wash w/ and put lotion on when you get out of the bath/ shower! I don't want to be breathing in your dead skin!!! plus, an added advantage if there is ever a crime scene anywhere they won't be able to vacuum up many of your cells for DNA! ok, that's my gripe for the day..

secret pt II

2005-01-31T14:10:00.000-06:00

oh yea people of little imagination- can't you come up w/ anything better than a boring ole baby? What about a new job? or a new house? or I won the lottery and will be retiring to the fiji islands???? or it could be about my hubby or our daughter- anyway- you'll just have to wait!!! BTW don't mention anything about the secret at the superbowl gathering or hubby might get mad- I'm not supposed to tell anyone about it yet- but it's killing me to tell someone!!!!! (he hates me posting our lives on here anyway- so I know he would be pissed) also Ginger are you going to try to come? and yes I'd like to try bingo w/ you sometime- I love playing pokeno and it's pretty similar

I'VE GOT A SECRET!

2005-01-31T10:02:00.000-06:00

HEHEHE!! I have a secret- I can't wait till I can share it- I have a few details to wrap up with it, then I will tell all!! prob somtime mid Feb.- hehehe can't wait!!! Care to guess what the big secret is??

KITCHEN UPDATE

2005-01-30T09:06:00.000-06:00

AHH- my kitchen is almost restored, we grouted the tile yesterday- that was a bigger pain cleaning all that up than installing it- I have a raw spot on my finger, and I couldn't move my arm last nite it hurt so bad. The stove is back in place, so I can at least use it, we have to wait till Mon to seal the grout, and we will be finished w/ the tile!! I don't ever want to do that again! Then the rest of the week will be spent trying to get the muck off the floor. I don't really like the grout color- it is too lite, but I'll learn to live with it-I am not redoing it!!! Zahra, as soon as fully functioning as a kitchen I will post the recipe for the footballs, it is kindof like rice crispies, but w/ choc! They were great, but everyone said the looked like turds b/c of the color and shape!!! ok, I always have too long of posts, so will shut up now!!

I finally got it

2005-01-28T20:56:00.000-06:00

OMG! I really hope I never mess this thing up again- After four days I finally figured out how to fix my sideboard- I don't even know how I messed it up!
It was a pain- our computer at work crashed today- so Monday morning we will have a mess of requests to sort through. before I left today I had to fax about 40 orders to the hospital, so that when the thing gets back up, someone can enter all of them into the computer- glad it's not me!! but I will have to match the requests with the films monday since I am the "earlybird" next week- that's ok, I'll get to leave 2 hours before the rest of them. I go tour another school Thursday, it is an Episcopal school- I don't know anything about that religion- if anyone does give me a clue- it is supposed to be a great school, but I hear that it is even snobbier than the other one we are considering. I just want the best for her- that's all that matters. We will be grouting the tile in the morning, then I will be cleaning like crazy to get this place ready fo rsuperbowl next wknd- can't decide on what to cook- I can't remember what I did last year other than the damn choc footballs everyone harrassed me about!!! (sorry chuck- none this year) possibly cooking red beans and rice anyway it will be good unless I burn it. I'll wager hubby doen't get up till after 9:30- and then he won't get started for another hour or more!!

try this way

2005-01-28T17:28:00.000-06:00

why I hate the price is right

2005-01-26T21:15:00.000-06:00

When I was about 11- 12 or so (not sure of the exact age- I know I had started my periods) my mom, me, and my grandmother DROVE to California to visit my grandma's sister in Bakersfield. This was a long trip, we went to many cool places that I won't ever forget, but we went to Los Angeles to the studio where Price is Right is taped- evidently my mom and grandma had something for the show- grandma watched religiously! Well, they decided to be contestants, all you had to do was stand in the line to see if you could get in, so we wait in line and when they get to the door to go in, they inform my mom that kids aren't allowed- does she do the good motherly thing and stay out- NO she carries her ass right on in and leaves her child in a huge strange city that she knows nothing about for HOURS and HOURS- she left me the car keys and change for snacks and cokes--- whoopie, I could have been kidnapped and car jacked at the same time-- I was soo bored.. Then her dumbass tells me not to leave the parking lot- what do I do??? Walk down the boulevard looking at the "walk of stars" you know the sidewalk w/ all the actors stars- I did get to see several actors of the Young and Restless, including Victor, Danny, and Nikki!! I was too chicken to get their autographs- plus no paper.. It was also the first time I ever saw a Mohawk haircut!!
so how stupid does everyone think my mom was for leaving me?? and that is why I hate the Price is Right- not to mention Bob Barker is an old sexist pig!!!

I'M STILL ALIVE

2005-01-26T21:01:00.000-06:00

I'm alive, I still feel like poo, but I am still kicking, even had to go to work cause I can't afford to be off, and wonderful employer screwed us out of our sick time we had accumulated when they changed over to a PTO system for days off instead of the wonderful ATO and SICK accrual we had, those sick days were nice, they didn't waste your vac. days.. and when they increased my health ins $80 bucks a month, that kind of screwed up taking a day without pay from now on- can't afford to be short now! Got the cool death calendar from JIN I thought it was cool!!! I beat her death age though- sorry Jin!!! I also added a counter, I don't know why it will take an eternity for it to add up to anything, since I only have a few blogfriends- that's ok, they are very good blogfriends!!! But anyway I thought it was cute- the little paint splotches.hehehe I will be so glad to finish my kitchen- I am tired of eating out fast food, it might be different if we were going to a real rest. to eat, we should get it back together this wknd. I have so much cleaning to do, and I def. don't have the strength to do it esp. after being sick, I am so dehydrated that my body hurts... well I hope to be getting back to some better and more entertaining posting after that. I have several good stories/ memories to share,just not enough time to share them.

OMG- I want to die

2005-01-25T13:02:00.000-06:00

I am so f***ing sick today that I fell like I would rather be dead than feel this bad!!!!!!!! I don't know if I have a virus or if the chicken sandwich I had for supper made me sick- all I know is I spent most of the nite in the bathroom puking and pooing!!!!! I had no sleep, and I cannot sleep well during daylight hours, so I still feel like poo. The only thing I have eaten today is jello and ice cream b/c the thought of eating makes me feel sick. But I was starving so I tried the ice cream first, because all I could think about this morning at 5 am was icecream- well that didn't make me feel too bad, so for lunch I had orange and wild strawberry jello- unfortunately I was in a hurry when I made the orange that it has chunks of gelatin that didn't get dissolved well- just my damn luck. Pray that I recover quickly- the only good thing is I lost 4-5 pounds overnite!!! but I feel so dehydrated and weak it isn't funny.. hope everyone else has a better day than mine

Three day wknd from hell

2005-01-24T19:52:00.000-06:00

ok, as most of you know we tiled our countertops this weekend... here's the real story... I took off work Friday because the intention was to put tile down Friday and the do the grout on Sunday... well, we got nothing much accomplished Friday besides going to Monroe to buy a new sink and faucet while searching for an extension box for the outlets--- found every size except what we needed. We did get the wood stained and put on for the edges of the countertop- which I must say look damn good (I do have good taste in picking out most things) and that was about it for that day. (oh I did lay out all the tile to see how it would best fit on the counter). Saturday morning comes, and I get up and stack all the tiles up, waiting on "hubby" to get up out of bed (he ALWAYS sleeps in). After he gets up, not even ten minutes into starting this job, he smarts off to me. I let that comment go- not even five mintutes later he got attitude again!!! Well, that did it- I left him to do it all by himself!!! I went to our bedroom and sat on the bed watching tv. He was not happy at all- he stormed back there and told me to get up and help him- I laughed!!! So he went to work. It took him ALL day to lay just the tops of the counter... So here comes Sunday, as usual I am up way before him! When he finally gets up moving he starts working on the backsplash- I am still not helping him- well, this is where I figure out that he did not lay and cut the tile around the stove correctly- so now the damn counters and backsplash are going to be uneven!!! I am sooo pissed that I wanted to kill him- but I just walk out the room-- he finagles with it for awhile, and finally comes up w/ a solution to hide his mistake (yeah for him for thinking) so he goes to work on one wall. I tell him on the second wall he should start w/ the outside edge and work back in b/c of the special end pcs. He does not! so at the edge of the tile is two pcs shoved together to hide that error. In all you cannot really tell, thank goodness!, but we still don't have the grouting done, that will be after Tue, and then I can start the massive cleanup job b/c he made such a mess!!! but the new tile, sink and faucet are going to look good- whew, that took forever!

WELL HELL

2005-01-19T17:20:00.000-06:00

Earlier at lunch I sat down and did a HUGE post, it was my list of ten reasons why I hate my job, it was so good, and some of it was funny besides being a good bitch about how miserable I was today, but SOMEHOW while it was posting, it errored out!!!! I was soooooo pissed then!!! I just said to hell with it and went back to work... maybe I'll take some time and recreate it , but it won't be as good then... on another subject, our CT tech had her wallet stolen from her purse this afternoon in the dept, she had walked out of her room for only a few min.. So, everyone (males and females) need to photocopy everything in their wallets!!!! and store it in a safe place at home, she had no ideal what credit cards were even in her wallet!!!! take action NOW before it happens to you!!!!

i got bangs- I got bangs

2005-01-17T17:08:00.000-06:00

ha/ ha I cut myself some bangs this wknd- at least people at work did notice this fact- not like two weeks ago when I colored my hair and only ONE person noticed!!! Makes you feel a little invisible when you make changes and no one notices- although the mother did not notice the cut, she noticed the color (only because she likes my taste in haircolor).

okay, I 'm gonna try this link thing Jin told me about, so here's my friends site MY LIFE hope it works-

YUK!!! AMERICAN IDOL AGAIN

2005-01-17T09:49:00.000-06:00

I loath American Idol - I think it is the biggest waste of television!! I cannot stand anyone of the idols, except Kelly Clarkson, and I really don't like her that much... and that idiot William Hung- here is this dumbass who has prob made more money being made fun of than I will in my life!! How annoying is that??? Can we not move on from this kind of stupidity??? Reality TV is so yesterday--- get us some good shows that are better than our real lives, so we can have a fantasy life for a while. What shows does everyone else hate? (And I know there are some Idol lovers out there also)

boring part II

2005-01-16T19:52:00.000-06:00

ok, several hours later... we got the tile for our kitchen counters this wknd, it will look so good!!! I am kinda disappointed that the second color tile that we chose to accent w/ is not that dramatic of a difference... but it will work out. If any one has any experience laying tile, give us some helpful hints... we are tile virgins!!!! We have done so much work on this house ourselves, so I'm not afraid of doing it, it would be nice to not make any stupid novice mistakes. baby is sitting in my lap wanting to type so badly!! She keeps telling me eeee and ddd -that's the only two letters that she knows!! I will be glad to get our counters done before the Super Bowl gathering. Ginger, you and your other half can come with Steph and Chuck if you want, and anyone else is welcome also... it's BYOB. We all just hang out - nothing to exciting or rowdy...(with kids around and all). I love having get to-gethers, I get to experiment with new food... hopefully no ugly comments like last year with the chocalate footballs that everyone said looked like pooh... but it's funny that they damn sure ate every one of them!!!!

boring stuff

2005-01-16T15:24:00.000-06:00

well, the damn weekend is almost over and did I accomplish anything?? NO of course not... had a baby shower to go to for a girl having twins, and then had dinner sat nite with hubbys relatives... kind of had a good time. My mom came down for the shower, she is coming over today to- I think she just got here. My mom lives in Pine Bluff w/ her new husband... Well, I have a friend from south Louisiana that just started her blog, but since I don't know how to do the cool link thing like Steph can do in the text- you canlook over on my blogroll hers is titled My Life. She is so funny sometimes, I can't wait to see what all she will come up w/ to blog.. will be back after mom leaves

and you thought you had a bad day

2005-01-14T17:39:00.000-06:00

WARNING- mascara alert some of you may cry over this- i did. Today a very cute black girl came in for an ob ultrasound, this should have been one of the happiest days of her life- it should have been the first time she got to hear her babys heart beat, and see it's little alien self on the monitor, but she didn't get that today... today she learned that her baby had died about three weeks ago... and she never even knew it... fetal demise is such a cruel thing, if you have a miscarriage at least you know it has happened, with this you have no clue (usually) unless it is later term preg. Her spouse only wanted to know what happened. Sorry sir but we don't know the answer to that-no one knows why some people die, and why some people have to suffer... i hope to never again hear myself think of death a part of a plan--- who's plan- definitely not the people it has happened to, I find it harder and harder to believe in a god that allows terrible things to happen- how was it god's will or plan that over 150 thousand people could die such horrible deaths in the tsunamis- especially all the children, they were just living their normal lives like we do every day and most of us take it for granted....so just remember that your day could always be worse that it was.. this puts life in perspective for me, you never know what will happen when you wake up that day.

STUPID DOCTORS

2005-01-13T13:32:00.000-06:00

A pediatrician sent a 7 yr old today for xrays of the ears- duh idiot you cannot xray and ear by itself there is no such thing... so the diagnosis is for foreign body in the earlobe... how the hell do you get a fb in the ear lobe?? so we quiz irate mother- what are they looking for? they think her earring back has gone into her earlobe- this is not a thing that is going to happen!!! the damn earback probably fell off somewhere.. you morons.... and we wonder why healthcare costs so much nowadays... btw the same ped. sent a 4 year old for soft tissue of the cheek two days age----where do they come up with these things???

untitled

2005-01-12T21:38:00.000-06:00

I have so much fun reading and checking on everyone else's blogs that I forget to save time to write on mine!! Sometime's by the time the day is over, I forget what I had thought about to write on, or hubby comes in standing over my shoulder and makes me feel like I should not be on the computer, but sitting next to him watching the tv ( but still not talking to each other). I think he is jealous - anyway, today was a sucky day for all around from what I 've read. This clomid makes you kind of grouchy and irritable *kind of like menopausal* so all these stupid acting patients get on my nerves way easier than normal.. The very first patient at 7 30 in the morning was all nervous and crazy. So you've had breast cancer before, why soed that make you any different from the other hundreds of ladies, they don't all freak out over getting their mammo. Shut up and leave me alone, I'd still like to be asleep right then. It only got worse from there. The damn VA clinic, which BTW wastes soo much money on useless xrays it isn't even funny sent god knows how many pts over today, all of them having multiple xrays... what a good use of my tax dollars... The only thing good today was that I went to look at a school for Grace. I think she will be happy there, if only I can afford it.. Thinking of breaking my silence to my crappy father and asking him to help me.. The public schools here in LA are horrible, but I will have no other alt . I will break down and ask him..BTW he has been online now for just about the entire time I've been typing and hasn't said hello to me how nice is that!!

I HATE CLOMID

2005-01-10T20:09:00.000-06:00

I have the biggest headache right now, and I just damn well know that it is from the clomid- I also had several major hot flashes today...argh.. I think to myself, is it worth it?? Can I even afford to have two children? After seeing tuition costs for the school "baby" is to go to in aaugust- I really have to wonder. I had so hoped to avoid the side effects, since they did not start day one like before. Well, we will just have to see. If god wants me to have another child, then I suppose it will happen, but I 'm not taking this crap for long,, two or three rounds at the most and that's it - I have one great kid and I can be happy with that. Just god help me if anything were to happen to her, I know I would not be strong enough to survive unless I had other kids to take care of.

RED UNDERWEAR MAN

2005-01-10T11:40:00.000-06:00

I told Steph about this guy this wknd so I'll share it with you- I had a patient about age 50 or so for a routine xray, sent him into the bathroom to put on a gown. I always stand in the doorway to give them the instructions on how to put the stupid three arm gown on. Well, mr "i think i'm sexy with my red underwear" tells me "he don't need a gown"- it didn't bother him to be in his underwear- so he starts undoing his clothes!!!! Before I can get out the way he's in his undies.
I 'm steadily telling him to put on a gown, and he keeps repeating that "he don't need one." Finally, I grab a gown and hold it up between he and I so that I don't have to see his hideous underwear. I rudely tell him that it bothers me and that I don't care to see his underwear or ANYTHING ELSE that he has... This guy reminded me of my father, all perverty and messing with younger women... why do men do things like that??? I used to tell my father to not speak to women and flirt with them because it's gross--- and now someone like that does that to me!!! UGH- GROSS- YUK!!!! I hate the thought that my father is probably still running around doing the dame thing to other women-- at least now I don't have to hear it or witness it!!! (that's a whole other subject that I'm sure I willl be on many times.)

The weekend

2005-01-09T22:10:00.000-06:00

Well, watched WHITE NOISE this wkd- was not very impressed at all.. maybe someone else will love it, but it was not at all what I wanted it to be... it was more sad, drama in it that I like. The day was still good, We went out to eat at La Bella Vita - an italian place. Meal was great, time alone with each other was nice - but I do miss "baby" when she's gone... Played pokeno sunday came in last place- got a bamboo tray.. I will be trading it in on something else Steph was there to -but she didn't win...so sorry!! well, desp housewives on bye

ANDREA YATES

2005-01-07T08:52:00.000-06:00

NOT a name I ever wanted to hear again, this woman admitted that she methodically drowned her kids- how the hell does testimony about a tv show alter the juries opion- it's a fictional show- she killed her kids!!!! There is no doubt about that!!! So why so we have to waste more money on another trial, that she will prob be found guilty again, and will prob not go to JAIL again for- she is in a nice "mental facility" where she needs to be. If justice was to be served to those poor kids, they should hang her upside down and put her head in a bucket of water and let her struggle to save herself like you know those poor kids did. I have a two year old and it's damn hard enough to make her lay her head back to rinse the shampoo out of her hair- now imagine your own mother holding you under water- kids are strong and that woman is not that big! You know damn good and well those kids fought hard to stay alive- it's an instinct for them to fight..Well enough on that, I just get so sick of hearing about these people who hurt there children.

NINE YEARS

2005-01-06T09:26:00.000-06:00

Today is my ninth wedding anniversary- wow!!! I would have never thought I could put up with one person for so long. Hubby is a good guy- doesn't cheat, hit, or abuse me in any way. The first several years were rough- we even split up for a month or so- I fully enjoyed the time apart. I could easily live alone most of the time. But , he came back- he just couldn't stand living with his mother again (long story) I think we became a lot better at being married when we were trying for two years + to have a child. That was a long battle that we went through by ourselves. No one in our families or friends really knew what was going on- except my mom. So now that I am trying again, I will have this place to talk to to help with the anger, frustration, and the million and one other emotions that occur with fertlity problems. BTW no ill effects of the clomid- yet... last time they were almost instant. anyway back to the anniv. I wanted us to have a romantic wkd together, but no funds for that right now- damn insurance and taxes!!! So, I will have to settle on dinner and a movie.. Hubby not excited over my choice of movies- He't still mad at me for making him watch The Grudge. I want to see White Noise. Hubby hates scary movies - I think I am addicted to them. Hope the day is a good one.

What the hell...I did it

2005-01-05T08:05:00.000-06:00

Well, I finally did it, I got my own blog.. decided that today was a good day to start , since I will be starting clomid today.. need a place to vent so that I will hopefully be able to keep the hormonal rages down..that stuff makes you crazy. Hopefully someone will enjoy reading my misadventures.