10 YEARS OF MY LIFE

WOW- today is my 10th wedding anniversary!!!!! I cannot believe that those are words that come from me.. I have been married nearly a third of my life... We seemed such young kids when we started dating 12 years ago. I look at pictures of us and think where did those two people go?? I don't feel much different from then, but I look at the older face in the mirror and don't know who is looking back at me. Does everyone see that in themselves? There have been so many changes in our lives the past 10 years and at the same time almost none. That sounds weird to say- and maybe it's just me? I look at our two kids and wonder why did we wait so long to have them?? Was I afraid I would be a terrible parent? Am I a good parent? Have I made the right choices? These are questions that I don't have the answer to. I just know that I am so enjoying life right now and don't want it to end!! I hate to see myself as vulnerable to disease and death- but it is always there lurking. I look at people around me who don't have what I have and wonder why. Who decides who gets what in life? If there is a god out there- let me be.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE- HOPE IT'S A GOOD ONE!

DR'S DR'S AND MORE DR'S

Hello, remember me??? I am back in some form- not sure if totally back or not. Quick update on the kids- RSV... need I say more, oh and ear infections... We have been to the dr more this one month than G-baby has been her whole life.. and A.C. has been alot herself- not to mention a hospital stay, so can you blame me for not ever blogging.. AC is doing wonderful, she is so fat and happy, except for having rsv now thanks to big sister who can't leave her alone.. I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and will have a Happy New Year!!! God Bless

In case anybody still reading my blog

It's a girl!!!! In case anyone is still checking my blog- doubtful after nearly a month of no posts-- I was tired. Allison Claire was welcomed into the world two weeks early ( courtesy of hurricane Rita) on Friday Sept 23 at 6:04 pm. She weighed 7#5 oz and was 19 inches long.. she is so beautiful!!! After 5 days of jaundice, and blood drawn everyday, we are finally getting some rest and relaxation. I am on maternity leave until after Thanksgiving, which is going to come too fast!!!! If any of my online friends would like to see a photo of the baby, email me and I will email the website addy to see her nursery photo.. Later

I am gonna cry

I went to G-baby's school orientation last nite. I don't know how I am going to leave her there Monday!!! Even if she does care if I am there or not- it is going to be one of the hardest things I've done. How do you put your child into the care of someone they have never met??? I know I am a very over protective mother- but hey it took me years to get her here- I am going to do everything poss. to ensure nothing happens to her. There are 9 or 10 boys in her class and there are 15 total. That cannot be good. Well, I was just about crying last nite after leaving the school- so I know Mon. will be bad. Pray for strength and courage for me to be able to walk out and leave her Monday.

YEAH FOR ALTERNATIVE MEDICINES!!

Well, I have been going to a chiropractor for my pelvic pain, and after TWO adjustments, I am already feeling better!!!!!!! A pelvic adjustment hurts alot worse than a back adjustment does- but it has helped hallelujah- I had the best nights sleep last nite that I have had in a long time!!! I will be going regularly until this baby is born. My bone is sore when they pop this device on it to make the bone move- but it hurts for only a few minutes compared to excruciating pain most all nite and day..

G-baby's birthday was wonderful- she got lots of presents and we all had so much fun. Thanks for the well wishes!

Random Thoughts from a body in pain

1. Why do I have to work??? I don't like working all the time and I wish I could quit esp on days like today when my back started hurting at 2:00 - I would have went home but somebody oked a work-in mammo and bone density, then someone else told the 2 oclock pt she could come at 4. and there were routine xrays out the ass... I did leave them with two difficult pts to be done at 5 oclock-

2. I hate Jane Fonda- I think she is a horrible selfish person, and I wouldn't waste my hard earned AMERICAN dollars on anything that has her in it, near it, or in anyway associated with it... she needs to go move to Iraq or Vietnam and live out the rest of her miserable life.

3. The SOB child molester that killed the little boy and did god knows what to his sister, has been linked to another case in which a child was assaulted and killed -- so much for "they can be rehabilitated" I think if you touch a child, you should be castrated and branded with a big tattoo on your forehead that says molester!!!! So much for sex offender registration - ONE STRIKE YOUR OUT!!!!

4. My sweeties b-day is in 3 days, I can hardly wait, one of my good friends sent her her present yesterday, and it was so sweet to hear her ask if the present was "for me" she tore into it, so hopefully this year will be exciting to watch her open gifts. Last year she didn't care, she wanted to play with all the kids.. I hope the weather is nice like last year, I can't handle much heat in my condition!!!

That's all the rant for now- thanks for listening...

Vacation Part II

Darn it takes me forever to do anything nowadays. Sorry so long to get back to the story. Friday is the worst day of the vacation. We (me, mom, stepdad, and G-baby) get up early and are waiting on stepsister and her hub to finally get out of bed-- and they decide they want to rent another boat and go out onto Lake Hamilton.. so we finally get going after 9, we are all in my stepdads truck easing down the road, when some hillbillies pull out down the road in front of us, (st least we think they pulled out they could have just been driving down the road) well this hound dog runs out in the road chasing them, well needless to say, there was a vehicle coming from the other way, and we hit the brakes trying to stop, but we ran over him, we felt him roll under both tires..... we are all trying not to freak cuz G-baby didn't see the dog in the road, and I didn't want her to know we hit it. The hillbillies evidently saw us hit it, and they stop in THE MIDDLE OF THE HIGHWAY!!!! I am assuming it might have been their dog??? they are screaming at us for not F*ing stopping to check on the stupid dog!!! I am pissed at this, and had I been driving I would have had my preg ass on their heads for harassing me with my kid in the car.. not to mention the fact that it is dangerous to stop in the road and that injured animals can be dangerous- I'm not messing with one unless it is my OWN.

First of all, you'd have to be an idiot to run in the ditch to miss an animal, it will do more damage than hitting it, Secondly, there was a child and a seven months preg woman in the truck? Had the other lane been clear, we could have avoided it.. Thirdly, if you really cared about your dog, you would have taken care to keep it outta the road!!! Animals get ran over in the highway! okay- enough about that .

So we go onto the lake, and rent a boat during one of the hottest times of the day- thanks Sis...

That night we go to the rest, that Steph suggested-"thanks"
We had the craziest waitress in the entire world, she scared me from the beginning to the end of our meal... Skipping the boring parts, As she was cleaning of some of the table, she though my stepsis hadn't eaten her crablegs, so she asked her about them, sis said she ate what she wanted, so she offers it to sis's hubby, he says no he don't want it either. next thing I know, this piece of crableg land on MY PLATE- I'm like WTF? I didn't know what to say- we are all looking at each other in disbelief!!!!!!!!! This waitress just put food off someone else's plate onto mine, and she touched it w/ her hands!!! UGHHHHHHH. I am so ready to leave, I just want to run screaming from the building...

Sat was pretty tame until 5 that afternoon , and as we are getting ready to go to the pool, our elect. in the camper goes off, we think we have thrown a breaker- nope, nothing so simple as that.. the breaker box, and wiring to the rv pad has died, so we have to spend the next two hrs moving the camper over to the next spot- in 100 degree weather, if it had happened earlier in the day, we would have just pulled out and went to Pine Bluff..

So that concludes the good vacation/ bad vacation week as short and sweet as I can make it...

BTW four days till my G-baby turns 3....